Mother issues

 Read this from a quora post and it hit the nail in coffin!

Is it possible for a mother to hate her own daughter?

Absolutely!

If the mother has character disturbances such as NPD the daughter will be target #1. If you are the daughter of an NPD mother you will experience cruel things thru out your life that will only ramp up as you mature and develop your independence.

I am the daughter of a severe highest spectrum NPD mother. I have an older sister and a younger brother. I was singled out within my family at an early age. I the only one she went for with cruelty. I can remember cruel things that to this day play over and over in my head as to how a mother whom should protect and nurture could inflict the very things that hurt me to the core of my soul.

I am in my 50’s and still affected as to how my own mother could hate me so. I have learned of NPD over the last 12 years and it put everything she has ever done to hurt me into perspective. I learned why i was chosen and not my sister, i learned what triggered my mothers hatred and i have excepted its her not ME.

If you are sensitive and empathetic, a truth seeker and above all else someone whom forges a path of independence and truth yearning for validation and resolve to what ever she throws your way just wanting the simplicity of your mother to acknowledge you and your achievements you will be disappointed over and over again because she is incapable of giving her acceptance of you!

The older we got the worse her targeting me to bring me down became. You are targeted because you are sensitive, empathic and independent. The older i got the worse the abuse. Everything i do in my life is wrong. If i did it my way, it was met with criticism, hatred and negativity. I would try to do things the way i thought she wanted and that too somehow was WRONG WRONG WRONG! Always leaving me fucked up and confused! if i wore green for Christmas it was the wrong color green it is all a game of manipulation, gaslighting and crazy making that keeps the target confused!

If i asked for advise it would be horrible advise, i learned to never ask her opinion because i realized she wanted me to fail! Triggering emotions from you such as confusion, anger or hurt is what they live for…they want any emotion from you but happy! They are jealous and envious of everything you are! Your height, weight, eye color, hair cut, job, friends, choice in decor, clothes, cars any and all relationships EVERYTHING! it all triggers the green envy within!

It gets worse with age, because they are fine tuning how to trigger you, they know how to cut deep, staring intently at you as they plunge the knife watching the pain envelope on your face makes them elated with satanic pleasure! It soothes the demon within them to see you suffer!

I cut my mother off 3 years ago and i have no regrets in doing so. She still circles trying to get to me, but has no in so she creates stories to keep herself the victim which in turn gets her the attention she so desperately needs, i am a horrible daughter and she the victim! If you feel your mother hates you, it is not because of anything you have done, its because you represent strength, beauty, resolve and truth all of which she lacks. You are targeted for being a good person! You are targeted because you beg for resolve, you are willing to confront issues to try and “fix” what ever it is, only there is nothing and to beg for them to tell what you have done will be like running on a hamster wheel, because there is NOTHING!

its all a game to keep you emotional.

Get help so you can understand and heal. Get help because the burden of knowing a mother hates her own child is deep, but its her not you.